Birth story part 3

.......I must admit before I was being wheeled to theatre I had a little cry, part of me felt like I had failed as I really wanted a natural birth and after 28 hours it felt like I was admitting defeat. 

As I was on the bed Grant had being given scrubs to change into and the anaesthetist was running along side me explaining what was going to happen, unfortunately my mum wasn't allowed in as only one birth partner can be in theatre which I think she was quite sad about. To be honest the journey to the theatre was a bit of a blur but once there and moved onto the table we was ready to go. There seemed to be an urgency to get baby out I think due to the heart rate going up and down. Lying on the table I looked at a very pale Grant and I whispered "are you ok" (after he said I can't believe you was worried if I was ok when you was the one going through the operation).

My epidural was topped up and they began to operate, at this moment I could feel the knife cutting my skin and they stopped they put some more anaesthetic in and if this didn't work I would be put under, which I really didn't want as Grant and myself would miss the birth. The surgeon started again and it was fine phew! 

After lots of prodding and pushing they raised up this screaming little bundle and Grant announced we had had a boy, the midwife asked if he had a name and Grant looked at me and I nodded "Seve". I was slightly shocked as I was convinced it was a girl but out of relief I had tears streaming down my face. Grant was seeing to baby and for me things got a bit more scary, I had started to haemorrhage and could hear the doctor say "this is going from bad to worse" inside I had a tiny panic and thought I would be knocked out after what felt like a lifetime the screen was lowered and they congratulated me, all I could focus on was the amount of blood covering everyone. 

Lots of blood!

I was wheeled round to recovery and meet my little man for the first time after four years of trying and nine months growing this life inside me i was finally getting to meet him and he was just perfect, so tiny and precious and I couldn't quite believe I was his mummy. 

Welcome to the world

I will be wholly honest I didn't get the 'rush of love' everyone talks about and I think that was due to having the c-section and then loosing 800ml of blood but my love has grown each day I'm with Seve and both me and Grant are totally smitten.

Daddy love x

Birth story part 2

.......I was the girl who had begged my consultant to let me go midwife led (IVF ladies are normally consultant led) and here I was in a consultant led room. I learnt very quickly that babies dictate how your labour goes. 

My midwife did an examination and I was 5cm however she could feel a lump over babies head and explained it could be a vain and it was looking likely I would need a c-section as if my waters were to break it could in theory drown baby as I could hemorrhage, three more internals in between contractions and the final consultant reassured me it wasn't a vein and broke my waters (que warm water and lots of it).

At this point I was on all fours (as this is suppose to help back labour) shouting that I wanted an epidural. My mum arrived at 10.30pm and at around 11pm the anaesthetist came in to give me my best friend, 20minutes later I was a totally different person. I did 8 hours with no pain relief not even gas and air and the epidural was heaven. I kept saying to my mum "I don't know why everyone doesn't have this it's amazing". I was put on the oxytocin drip to help speed up the labour and myself, Grant & mum slept for a few hours which was quite surreal. 

Grant found labour tiresome! 

I progressed to 7cm then 9cm by 1pm on sat 12th, yep 16 hours looking at the same four walls and listening to baby's heartbeat (very relaxing). I had to wait another 4 hours for the consultant to do another internal, due to infection then they could make a decision if I would have a c-section or a natural birth. At 5pm the consultant did his examination and baby hadn't progressed passed 9cm so the drip was removed this made baby's heart rate go all over the place and within seconds I was being wheeled down a corridor towards the theatre. 

Monitoring for hours

This definitely wasn't part of the plan but safety of me and baby was always my top priority......